Why It's Important To Be Honest With Yourself

Most of the time we know that there is something getting us down but we avoid facing the cause of the problem and trudging along in the hopes that the problem will just resolve its self.

I know for a fact that I am the worst at this, I always fear facing my problems and choose to push them to the back of my head and drown myself in my work, it wasn’t until the beginning of this year I realised that it just wasn’t good for me. I never wanted to admit that I wasn’t okay or that I was struggling with simple day to day tasks, so I carried on pretending. After I months of pretending I didn’t even recognise the person I saw looking back at me in the mirror, I had become this completely fake version of myself and I absolutely hated her.

I lied for months, pretending that I loved my previous Uni course, that I didn’t mind the toxic people in my life and the biggest one was telling myself that I was "just fine". Just fine was the very last thing I was, I hated my previous Uni and my course, these toxic people in my life where constantly getting me down and overall I was so tired of pretending to be someone I wasn’t.

It took a lot of courage and many tears but I finally admitted to one person that I wasn’t okay, this was the first time I had been honest in months and it felt like this huge weight off my shoulders, as the days went on I slowly began to accept the fact that it was okay to feel everything I was feeling and that I wasn’t alone.

Tackling your fears is always going to be hard but just remember to be honest with yourself, if something is getting you down, don’t avoid it because it can potentially grow into something a lot bigger. Nowadays I take the time to think about things instead of pushing them to the back of my head, over the last couple of months I have been keeping a small journal, I don’t write in it everyday but it is filled with various drawings, pictures, little souvenirs from places and occasional day entries where I write down things various things. For me I've found that this was the best way for me to be honest with myself but there are so many different ways you can do it.

I think we need to be reminded that its okay not to be okay.